Rough day at work today. The vending machines were calling my name as soon as i got in. I swear it's something about that place- all we ever do in there is eat. I slammed down a protein shake right away to fight the urges and then they brought out the TV Diner taping food...steak tips, caesar salads and all kinds of stuff. Next my friend Pete broke out his wife's famous banana bread. I had just about had it. Then my guest shows up- who happens to be the Founder of the Sam Adams Brewery- so of course he brought a huge cooler of beer for everyone and I think I wanted a cold one more than I even wanted all the food!
I finally made it out alive- but it was a real drag. I think it was a reminder that nothing around me is going to change- the only thing that has to change is me. God I pray I can handle it. Please dont let me be hungry. I have to fast from Sunday night til Wed afternoon and I'm talking not even a sip of water- so if I AM hungry- they better be prepared to keep that morphine pump primed cuz I am going to be a TERROR.
Picked up the new Carnie Wilson book today so I can read it at the hospital. I think she was still maintaining when she wrote it because i know i have seen her on the talk shows lately talking about post op weight gain. I feel for her...I dont think it will ever get easier...just different.
Missed my monkey man today- long day at work...we laughed for about 20 mins straight at bedtime- he cracks me up- we couldn't stop giggling over everything! He is the joy of my life...I have to hurry home and get back to business for my little man...I'll miss him so much.
1 comment:
Deb,
Im reading this in amazement. First at your strength in getting your feelings out in the open, your struggles facing this life-altering moment. You are so strong. I am pulling for you all the way.
Secondly from one blogger to another, this is great writing. I hope you keep this up for years to come. Especially when you move on to happier times, which are right around the bend.
Little Deely
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