One Holiday and Birthday down, 1 Holiday and Birthday Party to go. What a crazy week. Had a wonderful Christmas with my parents here from Florida. Nick has more toys that he even knows what to do with. Followed by more toys for his birthday. If the kid could have just waited until his Feb 11th due date he wouldnt have such an embarrassment of riches this time of year! I can't believe I have a 4 year old now:)
Lew is on vacation so we've been getting some stuff done, enjoying all the new toys with Nick and even had a date today...which happens to be the 7 year anniversary of the day we met. I was reflecting on all that has happened in that time- wow.
We went to see Marley and Me, what a tear jerker. I was a mess, I can't believe I couldnt read the book, the movie was soooo good. I tried to read it awhile back but couldnt get into it. That was the best movie I have seen in a long time. It killed me. We checked out Blue Stove at Nordstroms after. It's a tapas/wine bar and man was it good. This is my new favorite restaurant, by far. It is perfect for me, small plates with no carbs! We had crispy dark cherry glazed beef, fingerling potatoes with chorizo, lemon risotto with grilled sea scallops, and thai chicken satay with crunchy spicy peanut sauce. The chef also sent over a complimentary tapa of braised short ribs. YUMMO as Rachel Ray would say....we loved everything. Had the best wine too...every time I order something from the Paso Robles region of Cali, it is a winner.
So I was thrilled I didnt get sick from anything, as I have had a few incidents the past week with all the holiday food. I had a nice wine induced nap from 8-11pm when I got home- laid down with Nick- and now I am up and at em. I hit a new low today- I am now just 4 pounds away from my original goal weight. I still can not believe it.
I am feeling great and been doing the eliptical almost every day. I love it.
Nick and I signed up for swimming lessons today at the Y- I was so happy to find a class where you can get in the pool with them and not just drop him off as I knew that would not fly. So that will be our new winter routine, Daddy and me on Sat mornings and Swimming with Mom on Sunday mornings...a nice break for Lew and I get Sat me time.
Not much else new, looking forward to another snow storm tomorrow and heading over to our neighbors for our annual 4-8pm New Years appetizers and cocktails. Been thinking about Puerto Rico and getting excited for some fun in the sun.
Thought for the day courtesy of SugarLand- great workout song!
"I ain't settling for just getting by
I've had enough so so for the rest of my life
Tired of shooting too low, so raise the bar high
Just enough ain't enough this time
I ain't settling for anything less than everything"
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Saturday, December 13, 2008
7 Months Post Op Wow Moments
Where does the time go- I cant believe I haven't blogged for almost a month. Maybe because I have been having too much fun and enjoying the new me to the hilt. So I won't apologize!
I am 7 months out now and down 105 pounds. I'll try to explain what my life is like now, but really there are no words. The changes are profound; physically, mentally and emotionally. I bought a dress for my holiday work party the other day and it was a size 12. A SIZE 12! That might not seem too small to people who have never had a weight problem, but let me tell you, coming down from a size 28/30 it is really a BIG deal. I nearly screamed with happiness from the fitting room....and I still can't believe it sometimes. In fact, I find myself still going directly to the plus size departments of stores, heading straight for the handicapped stalls in bathrooms, and putting clothes that are WAY too big into my shopping cart only to try them on then realize- nope- i need to go down a few more sizes. It is so much fun I must say!
I am finally feeling really good for the first time since surgery. This past month has been fantastic, as far as not getting sick and being able to eat just about anything I want. Small portions of course, but I haven't had any problems. It's almost like be careful what you wish for, because I now understand how and why people can gain their weight back. It's still early in the game for me, but it's already getting so much easier to eat more at a time, and more of a variety...which could be very dangerous. I am now responsible for my own choices again...which is what got me into trouble in the first place. The past 6 months I was so limited to just a few foods and the volume was so miniscule...I really could not screw up if I tried. But now, I really have to stay on top of what I am taking in, and step up my exercise to maintain my loss, and hopefully lose another 20 pounds or so.
I am not doing a very good job of this today...so far I have had 3 bites of a bagel with cream cheese and 2 cups of coffee. BAD! I got up at 5am to come into work for ice storm coverage...but there really isn't much to do so I am catching up on stuff. I was able to do my xmas cards and change the ring tone on my cell phone to my new fave Beyonce song...so I am being very productive! HAHA! But I have been doing well overall...it's only noon so I'll get back on track today. I am already chugging down my crystal lite and I'll have some protein apps at Pam's party later today.
I only wish I could have one of those yummy holiday martinis they are famous for, but prob not a good idea with all the sugary juice and syrups they use in them.
I have been having lots of egg salad, deviled eggs, grilled chicken over greek salads and I even tried steak for the first time with no problem. I had to laugh though, I bought these 4 oz filet mignons from Omaha Steaks and the guys tried to talk me out of it because he said they are way too small and I should buy the bigger ones. I didnt feel like explaining why they were perfect for me- I just said I was going to use them for apps! Anyway I made one on the grill and I was nervous so I ate about a third of it, then the next day I was able to eat 2 more meals with left overs! I had some over salad for lunch, and then for dinner I made it into a little steak and cheese mini tortilla wrap. So the 40z steak that was too small gave me 3 meals! I remember going to Capital Grill and ordering the biggest steak on the menu- prob 14 ozs and eating the whole thing along with salad, bread, mashed potatoes and even dessert. That boggles my mind now! The best thing about this surgery is you can still have your cake and eat it too. I can have a taste of the things I love but a taste is enough.
I made a batch of eggface's eggnog protein icecream- yummy and tried the most amazing shake recipe from eggface for a peppermint mocha protein shake made with Click. Man it was incredible- better than Starbucks for sure. I dont know what I would do without my eggface...she is my hero. Even if you are not post op she has some awesome low carb/sugar recipes that anyone could benefit from...so check it out!
theworldaccordingtoeggface.com
I am 7 months out now and down 105 pounds. I'll try to explain what my life is like now, but really there are no words. The changes are profound; physically, mentally and emotionally. I bought a dress for my holiday work party the other day and it was a size 12. A SIZE 12! That might not seem too small to people who have never had a weight problem, but let me tell you, coming down from a size 28/30 it is really a BIG deal. I nearly screamed with happiness from the fitting room....and I still can't believe it sometimes. In fact, I find myself still going directly to the plus size departments of stores, heading straight for the handicapped stalls in bathrooms, and putting clothes that are WAY too big into my shopping cart only to try them on then realize- nope- i need to go down a few more sizes. It is so much fun I must say!
I am finally feeling really good for the first time since surgery. This past month has been fantastic, as far as not getting sick and being able to eat just about anything I want. Small portions of course, but I haven't had any problems. It's almost like be careful what you wish for, because I now understand how and why people can gain their weight back. It's still early in the game for me, but it's already getting so much easier to eat more at a time, and more of a variety...which could be very dangerous. I am now responsible for my own choices again...which is what got me into trouble in the first place. The past 6 months I was so limited to just a few foods and the volume was so miniscule...I really could not screw up if I tried. But now, I really have to stay on top of what I am taking in, and step up my exercise to maintain my loss, and hopefully lose another 20 pounds or so.
I am not doing a very good job of this today...so far I have had 3 bites of a bagel with cream cheese and 2 cups of coffee. BAD! I got up at 5am to come into work for ice storm coverage...but there really isn't much to do so I am catching up on stuff. I was able to do my xmas cards and change the ring tone on my cell phone to my new fave Beyonce song...so I am being very productive! HAHA! But I have been doing well overall...it's only noon so I'll get back on track today. I am already chugging down my crystal lite and I'll have some protein apps at Pam's party later today.
I only wish I could have one of those yummy holiday martinis they are famous for, but prob not a good idea with all the sugary juice and syrups they use in them.
I have been having lots of egg salad, deviled eggs, grilled chicken over greek salads and I even tried steak for the first time with no problem. I had to laugh though, I bought these 4 oz filet mignons from Omaha Steaks and the guys tried to talk me out of it because he said they are way too small and I should buy the bigger ones. I didnt feel like explaining why they were perfect for me- I just said I was going to use them for apps! Anyway I made one on the grill and I was nervous so I ate about a third of it, then the next day I was able to eat 2 more meals with left overs! I had some over salad for lunch, and then for dinner I made it into a little steak and cheese mini tortilla wrap. So the 40z steak that was too small gave me 3 meals! I remember going to Capital Grill and ordering the biggest steak on the menu- prob 14 ozs and eating the whole thing along with salad, bread, mashed potatoes and even dessert. That boggles my mind now! The best thing about this surgery is you can still have your cake and eat it too. I can have a taste of the things I love but a taste is enough.
I made a batch of eggface's eggnog protein icecream- yummy and tried the most amazing shake recipe from eggface for a peppermint mocha protein shake made with Click. Man it was incredible- better than Starbucks for sure. I dont know what I would do without my eggface...she is my hero. Even if you are not post op she has some awesome low carb/sugar recipes that anyone could benefit from...so check it out!
theworldaccordingtoeggface.com
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Elf on a Shelf- Shelved
So thanks to my friend Leslie, super mom, savvy shopper and anchor extra-ordinaire...I was on a quest to find the latest and greatest must have for spoiled rotten kids who have everything- translation- Nick Cote.
She told me about the Elf on a Shelf....apparently I am the last to know because its been hot for a few years now but going mainstream this year. It's basically a funny looking little elf that you hide around the house each day and he reports back to Santa if you've been naughty or nice. So parents use it as a tool to keeping present obsessed kids in line and most kids get a real kick out of it. Well not my kid. I finally found the little $30 bugger at Hallmark today...and was so excited to give him to Nick. Of course he wanted nothing to do with it and screamed at me not to take it out of the box. I think Nick just takes things very literally and he wanted not part of some elf who might be able to report back to Santa when he's naughty. He prob figures he's better off taking his chances without a little spy hanging around the house- smart kid of mine.
Anyway had a great weekend...was able to catch up with one of my best friends, Kathy Dovas Saturday. We met at Pheasant Lane Mall and it was so luxurious to sit and chat at Starbucks for at least an hour...especially over free lattes! HAHA long story.
Kathy also introduced me to one of her weaknesses- those damn annoying carts where they are always offering free samples and asking for just a minute of your time. I always ignore them and keep walking. But nooooo not Kathy. By the time we were through we were the proud new owners of not 1 but 3 miracle nail kits, a wet AND dry ceramic hair iron, and of course the roman oil hair styling kit to go with it. I could have killed her. She is INSANE. But we had alot of laughs, got our hair straightened, and made some nice new friends with foreign accents. Love ya Kath!
Today we did some errands, then hung out at home so Lew could of course watch the Pats Dolphins game. Our neighbors came over and the kids had a good time.
I am very proud that I did the eliptical 6 our of 7 days this past week. Where did that come from? I didnt even really plan it. I just really looked forward to it every day. Things have been going pretty well in the food department. 9 straight days without getting sick. Ever since my appt with Dr. Ameri. So I think our talk did help and I am not so quick to try and get sick when I feel full. I've been trying to eat more consciously, slowly and chew more...and I guess it's working.
Two big milestones to report...I had my first wrap sandwich and a protein shake and both stayed down! I had a half a wrap of grilled chicken, avocado and boursin cheese from the Soup Factory the other day at work. I ate it for 2 meals and man it was AMAZING. I think because it was on lavash bread and not a soft wrap is why it worked. Today I made tiramisu protein icecream- yum- and made the left overs into a shake so I didnt waste it. It was really good! I felt like I was having a mudslide...I did use a coupel tablespoons of Kahlua in it- woo hoo. This could be a big step forward for me because I have been concerned with the carbs lately and I think if I can have a protein shake every day instead of so many crackers, bread, english muffin etc...I will be much better off.
Well Lew and I are going to watch the 24 Movie...finally JACK IS BACK!
Thought of the day courtesy of Beyonce and my new favorite song:
"If you liked it then you should have put a ring on it!"
She told me about the Elf on a Shelf....apparently I am the last to know because its been hot for a few years now but going mainstream this year. It's basically a funny looking little elf that you hide around the house each day and he reports back to Santa if you've been naughty or nice. So parents use it as a tool to keeping present obsessed kids in line and most kids get a real kick out of it. Well not my kid. I finally found the little $30 bugger at Hallmark today...and was so excited to give him to Nick. Of course he wanted nothing to do with it and screamed at me not to take it out of the box. I think Nick just takes things very literally and he wanted not part of some elf who might be able to report back to Santa when he's naughty. He prob figures he's better off taking his chances without a little spy hanging around the house- smart kid of mine.
Anyway had a great weekend...was able to catch up with one of my best friends, Kathy Dovas Saturday. We met at Pheasant Lane Mall and it was so luxurious to sit and chat at Starbucks for at least an hour...especially over free lattes! HAHA long story.
Kathy also introduced me to one of her weaknesses- those damn annoying carts where they are always offering free samples and asking for just a minute of your time. I always ignore them and keep walking. But nooooo not Kathy. By the time we were through we were the proud new owners of not 1 but 3 miracle nail kits, a wet AND dry ceramic hair iron, and of course the roman oil hair styling kit to go with it. I could have killed her. She is INSANE. But we had alot of laughs, got our hair straightened, and made some nice new friends with foreign accents. Love ya Kath!
Today we did some errands, then hung out at home so Lew could of course watch the Pats Dolphins game. Our neighbors came over and the kids had a good time.
I am very proud that I did the eliptical 6 our of 7 days this past week. Where did that come from? I didnt even really plan it. I just really looked forward to it every day. Things have been going pretty well in the food department. 9 straight days without getting sick. Ever since my appt with Dr. Ameri. So I think our talk did help and I am not so quick to try and get sick when I feel full. I've been trying to eat more consciously, slowly and chew more...and I guess it's working.
Two big milestones to report...I had my first wrap sandwich and a protein shake and both stayed down! I had a half a wrap of grilled chicken, avocado and boursin cheese from the Soup Factory the other day at work. I ate it for 2 meals and man it was AMAZING. I think because it was on lavash bread and not a soft wrap is why it worked. Today I made tiramisu protein icecream- yum- and made the left overs into a shake so I didnt waste it. It was really good! I felt like I was having a mudslide...I did use a coupel tablespoons of Kahlua in it- woo hoo. This could be a big step forward for me because I have been concerned with the carbs lately and I think if I can have a protein shake every day instead of so many crackers, bread, english muffin etc...I will be much better off.
Well Lew and I are going to watch the 24 Movie...finally JACK IS BACK!
Thought of the day courtesy of Beyonce and my new favorite song:
"If you liked it then you should have put a ring on it!"
Saturday, November 15, 2008
74 degrees in November?
What a crazy couple of days....it's been so balmy, albeit rainy and dismal, but hey i'll take it with the warm temps. Had a great day...my Saturday morning ritual, 1 hour of blissful alone time, coffee and magazines on the chaise lounge with the dogs by my side. Nick and Lew go to their Daddy and Me class at the Rec Dept and it is so nice to have the house to myself....when does that happen right? Anyway we did a bunch of errands and got alot done around the house....which almost never happens because when the weather is nice you will find me anyplace but in the house. Took a nice long walk/run with the dogs late this afternoon and it was raining but it was so nice.
So I had my appt with Dr. Ameri...he and Louise were thrilled with my progress...said I was right where I should be in terms of weight loss for 6 months- a little ahead but nothing drastic. Which is good because I dont want to lose it too fast and then have problems down the road. I ended up crying and giving Dr. Ameri a big hug when he came in to see me....I didnt plan it...but it was heartfelt. I thanked him for taking a chance on me because I was thinking about how he almost cancelled my surgery when i admitted to eating cheese a few days before when i was supposed to be on my liquid diet. I remember telling him that day that if i didnt have it done that day I would never do it. And I do believe that. Thank god he went ahead with the surgery.
Anyway he is concerned about my vomitting so frequently. He wants to do a scope, but we are giving it 2 weeks to see how many times I get sick and what triggers it. So I have to keep a journal and try to figure out if we notice any trends. I am glad we are trying this first because if they have to do the scope, basically the little instrument they use to probe my poouch could stretch the opening to the pouch, and whether I end up having a stricture or not, it could really screw up my progress and success by allowing me to eat more. I dont want that to happen!
He said the hair loss is totally normal and should start slowing down soon. Overall they were just very happy for me and it all went great. I started crying when I told Dr. Ameri that just 6 months ago I would drop Nick off at pre school and then come home and set my alarm so I could sleep for 2 hours becuase I was in a sugar and carb coma every day and I was so exhuasted I couldnt even function. I told him that now I work out on the eliptical, clean my house, walk the dogs around the neighborhood and then usuallly still have time to read or relax for a bit before I pick him up. I thought that small example really summed up the improvements in my life and I am so grateful to him for giving it back to me.
Thought for the day:
"Dont be afraid your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin."
So I had my appt with Dr. Ameri...he and Louise were thrilled with my progress...said I was right where I should be in terms of weight loss for 6 months- a little ahead but nothing drastic. Which is good because I dont want to lose it too fast and then have problems down the road. I ended up crying and giving Dr. Ameri a big hug when he came in to see me....I didnt plan it...but it was heartfelt. I thanked him for taking a chance on me because I was thinking about how he almost cancelled my surgery when i admitted to eating cheese a few days before when i was supposed to be on my liquid diet. I remember telling him that day that if i didnt have it done that day I would never do it. And I do believe that. Thank god he went ahead with the surgery.
Anyway he is concerned about my vomitting so frequently. He wants to do a scope, but we are giving it 2 weeks to see how many times I get sick and what triggers it. So I have to keep a journal and try to figure out if we notice any trends. I am glad we are trying this first because if they have to do the scope, basically the little instrument they use to probe my poouch could stretch the opening to the pouch, and whether I end up having a stricture or not, it could really screw up my progress and success by allowing me to eat more. I dont want that to happen!
He said the hair loss is totally normal and should start slowing down soon. Overall they were just very happy for me and it all went great. I started crying when I told Dr. Ameri that just 6 months ago I would drop Nick off at pre school and then come home and set my alarm so I could sleep for 2 hours becuase I was in a sugar and carb coma every day and I was so exhuasted I couldnt even function. I told him that now I work out on the eliptical, clean my house, walk the dogs around the neighborhood and then usuallly still have time to read or relax for a bit before I pick him up. I thought that small example really summed up the improvements in my life and I am so grateful to him for giving it back to me.
Thought for the day:
"Dont be afraid your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin."
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Minus 100 pounds later.....
Today is my 6 month surgi-versary. 6 Months ago today at this hour I was headed to Winchester Hospital- close to 300 pounds and freaking out would be an understatement.
Fast forward to today, conveniently, I hit the 100 pound loss mark this morning- exactly 6 months after my surgery! I did my measurements this morning and that is even more astounding- if that is possible! I have lost a total of 56 inches-of fat I presume! I mean that is almost 5 FEET of FAT! My BMI has gone from a 48 Morbidly Obest, to a 31- which is still in the obese category- which annoys me! But I am sure it will still be going down. I have gone from a size 28/30 to my all time low the other day of SIZE 12! I think that particular pair of pants ran big- but WHO CARES!?!
So those are the factual numbers and stats. But even more important are the changes in my everyday life. I am definitely happier, healthier, and more comfortable in my own skin. My sister in law was asking me the other day what it feels like to lose a hundred pounds and my answer surprised me. I told her I feel completely comfortable and normal, and that isn't the weird part, it was more bizarre to be so big, and feel so strange. I feel like I am the way I am supposed to be now, and it's not really a big deal, if that makes any sense.
I still have challenges, but things are getting better. I have been getting sick alot but its kind of part of the drill now, and not so dramatic and drawn out as it was in the early days. I was able to have a couple glasses of wine and lots of yummy appetizers at a cocktail party this past weekend so that was great. I have noticed a pattern, when i have wine, I am able to eat much more easily. I heard that it relaxes all your muscles so that's prob why everything goes down fine! Definitely not something to do every day but nice to know.
I still get sick from basic stuff that is fine one day and hits me wrong the next- that is most maddening. Eggs, most veggies, red meat and pasta are still off limits.
But crispy pizza, high quality bread, chicken, fish, cheeses and most everything else are fine in small amounts. I subsitute splenda for sugar in everything and they even have a splenda brown sugar now so I do all my baking and no one even notices the difference. I am still a soup addict, and yogurt, power bars and protein icecream will always be my staples.
I definitely need to work on my exercise routine, it has been haphazard at best. I feel like I have alot more energy in general, but if I do a workout it depletes half my calories for the day, and I cant just eat more like most people do. So I am working on that puzzle.
I still have 12 pounds to go to reach my original goal...and I had given myself a year to do that! I suspect I will be going below that goal, whether I like it or not. That is one of my concerns, being able to stop losing when I want/need to.
Right now the biggest bummer is my hair loss. It has been going on for 2 months now with no signs of letting up. Thank god I started with so much hair...but I can tell the difference big time. Lew says he cant, but its really bothering me. I am anxious for my 6 month check up with Dr. Ameri Friday. Maybe he will have some ideas for me on that and the getting sick so frequently.
But overall I am finally ready to say I made the right decision. If you read this blog since the beginning, you know I did not feel that way for a long time. I know it was the answer for me...because honestly right this second, if i could get my paws on a Boston Kreme donut, I'd be scarfing it down! Hey I am still me, and thank god this tool keeps me in check.
Well Nick and I are road tripping to Newport today to celebrate and have some seafood for lunch...check out the shops and boats. Here's to the next 6 months and healthy years ahead.
Thought for the Day:
"What would you attempt to do if you knew you would not fail?"
Fast forward to today, conveniently, I hit the 100 pound loss mark this morning- exactly 6 months after my surgery! I did my measurements this morning and that is even more astounding- if that is possible! I have lost a total of 56 inches-of fat I presume! I mean that is almost 5 FEET of FAT! My BMI has gone from a 48 Morbidly Obest, to a 31- which is still in the obese category- which annoys me! But I am sure it will still be going down. I have gone from a size 28/30 to my all time low the other day of SIZE 12! I think that particular pair of pants ran big- but WHO CARES!?!
So those are the factual numbers and stats. But even more important are the changes in my everyday life. I am definitely happier, healthier, and more comfortable in my own skin. My sister in law was asking me the other day what it feels like to lose a hundred pounds and my answer surprised me. I told her I feel completely comfortable and normal, and that isn't the weird part, it was more bizarre to be so big, and feel so strange. I feel like I am the way I am supposed to be now, and it's not really a big deal, if that makes any sense.
I still have challenges, but things are getting better. I have been getting sick alot but its kind of part of the drill now, and not so dramatic and drawn out as it was in the early days. I was able to have a couple glasses of wine and lots of yummy appetizers at a cocktail party this past weekend so that was great. I have noticed a pattern, when i have wine, I am able to eat much more easily. I heard that it relaxes all your muscles so that's prob why everything goes down fine! Definitely not something to do every day but nice to know.
I still get sick from basic stuff that is fine one day and hits me wrong the next- that is most maddening. Eggs, most veggies, red meat and pasta are still off limits.
But crispy pizza, high quality bread, chicken, fish, cheeses and most everything else are fine in small amounts. I subsitute splenda for sugar in everything and they even have a splenda brown sugar now so I do all my baking and no one even notices the difference. I am still a soup addict, and yogurt, power bars and protein icecream will always be my staples.
I definitely need to work on my exercise routine, it has been haphazard at best. I feel like I have alot more energy in general, but if I do a workout it depletes half my calories for the day, and I cant just eat more like most people do. So I am working on that puzzle.
I still have 12 pounds to go to reach my original goal...and I had given myself a year to do that! I suspect I will be going below that goal, whether I like it or not. That is one of my concerns, being able to stop losing when I want/need to.
Right now the biggest bummer is my hair loss. It has been going on for 2 months now with no signs of letting up. Thank god I started with so much hair...but I can tell the difference big time. Lew says he cant, but its really bothering me. I am anxious for my 6 month check up with Dr. Ameri Friday. Maybe he will have some ideas for me on that and the getting sick so frequently.
But overall I am finally ready to say I made the right decision. If you read this blog since the beginning, you know I did not feel that way for a long time. I know it was the answer for me...because honestly right this second, if i could get my paws on a Boston Kreme donut, I'd be scarfing it down! Hey I am still me, and thank god this tool keeps me in check.
Well Nick and I are road tripping to Newport today to celebrate and have some seafood for lunch...check out the shops and boats. Here's to the next 6 months and healthy years ahead.
Thought for the Day:
"What would you attempt to do if you knew you would not fail?"
Friday, October 31, 2008
Trick or Treat
Well Nick got up at 4:45am today...and declared that he was "ready to go trick or treating." I told him no honey that's not til later tonite when it's dark out. He ran to the window, pulled up the shade and said "it's dark out now mom!"
Well the kid had a point! So it's been a looong day. We were at the local diner by 6:45am eating breakfast, half a slice of bacon and coffee for me, the works for him.
Target at 8am sharp picking out candy that I would not be tempted to eat- translation- no chocolate. I'll be so popular in the hood tonite. Now we are vegging out- I've been working a ton lately, it's nice to be home and not have any plans. I wanted to take a ride to Salem to check out the craziness, but Lew talked me out of it. He's no fun. I figured the kooks might not be out at 10am...but Lew said I was wrong!
We are going over our neighbors at 5 for dinner then all going trick or treating, so it should be a great night. I must admit I bought myself some sugar free candy last week and it is amazingly delicious. I dont miss the sugar at all. The Reese Cups and Russells Coconut chocolates are the best!
Overall I have been experiencing some kind of amazing turn around the past couple weeks. I cant believe how many different things I have been able to tolerate and I haven't gotten sick barely at all. Except for a bad call earlier this week...I was feeling way too good so of course I had to order a frontega chicken panini at Panera. WHAT was I thinking? I had about 3 bites - in about 20 mins- took it real slow and thought it was fine. But then it was over and I got sick. At least it came up fast and I wasn't sick for hours like I used to be. I found bread that I can tolerate- which might not be such a good thing. It's called Seeduction from Whole Foods and it is sooooo good. I am limiting myself to 1 slice a day to be safe...the slices are really small too...but I can see this becoming a problem so this might be my first and last loaf. I froze most of it because it will go bad way before I get to it.
I hit 97 pounds today- I really can not believe it. I would love to 100 before my 6 month check up with Dr. Ameri on Nov 14th. Took a nice long walk yesterday with my Ipod and it was great...I was thinking about everything that has happened in the past year and I truly feel grateful and blessed to have made this decision for myself and my family. It hasn't been easy and it is far from over, but I know it was the right thing for me.
Well we are off to the Blue Tulip to get a Halloween Night light- half price!
Hope your night is full of healthy treats!
Well the kid had a point! So it's been a looong day. We were at the local diner by 6:45am eating breakfast, half a slice of bacon and coffee for me, the works for him.
Target at 8am sharp picking out candy that I would not be tempted to eat- translation- no chocolate. I'll be so popular in the hood tonite. Now we are vegging out- I've been working a ton lately, it's nice to be home and not have any plans. I wanted to take a ride to Salem to check out the craziness, but Lew talked me out of it. He's no fun. I figured the kooks might not be out at 10am...but Lew said I was wrong!
We are going over our neighbors at 5 for dinner then all going trick or treating, so it should be a great night. I must admit I bought myself some sugar free candy last week and it is amazingly delicious. I dont miss the sugar at all. The Reese Cups and Russells Coconut chocolates are the best!
Overall I have been experiencing some kind of amazing turn around the past couple weeks. I cant believe how many different things I have been able to tolerate and I haven't gotten sick barely at all. Except for a bad call earlier this week...I was feeling way too good so of course I had to order a frontega chicken panini at Panera. WHAT was I thinking? I had about 3 bites - in about 20 mins- took it real slow and thought it was fine. But then it was over and I got sick. At least it came up fast and I wasn't sick for hours like I used to be. I found bread that I can tolerate- which might not be such a good thing. It's called Seeduction from Whole Foods and it is sooooo good. I am limiting myself to 1 slice a day to be safe...the slices are really small too...but I can see this becoming a problem so this might be my first and last loaf. I froze most of it because it will go bad way before I get to it.
I hit 97 pounds today- I really can not believe it. I would love to 100 before my 6 month check up with Dr. Ameri on Nov 14th. Took a nice long walk yesterday with my Ipod and it was great...I was thinking about everything that has happened in the past year and I truly feel grateful and blessed to have made this decision for myself and my family. It hasn't been easy and it is far from over, but I know it was the right thing for me.
Well we are off to the Blue Tulip to get a Halloween Night light- half price!
Hope your night is full of healthy treats!
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Down in the Dumps
So a few days ago I bragged about how I had never dumped. Well that's all it took....and here is the update.
Nick and I went into Boston after school Tuesday to visit the seals outside the Aquarium...then we went over to Quincy Market for lunch and shopping. We walked through the Faneuil Hall Food Court...wow it's been ages since I've been in there and it was overhwelming. I wanted everything. I was too afraid to try anything though and planned to eat my protein bar...until I met 2 exes named Dale and Thomas.
I discovered their popcorn at Target about a year ago and it is incredible. I love the chocolate carmel drizzle and wouldnt' you know they have set up shop in the Faneuil Hall Food court? I knew the sugar must be through the roof, but I didnt care. I bought a bag and dove in while we walked around. I was thinking- man I am gonna pay for this....I think deep down I have been pushing the envelope, trying to figure out just what I am going to get away with. So I ate several handfuls- the stuff is addictive. Everything was totally fine. I couldnt believe it. I realize that I definitely didn't eat even a quarter of what I would have in my pre-op days, but I still had at least a cup full- which equals 32 grams of sugar! My guidelines call for nothing over 7 grams!!!! So I was thinking- oh my god- I guess sugar isn't going to be a problem for me. And that scared me. Big time.
Fast forward to Wed night- I had asked Lew to hide the bag down in his office, but decided I wanted more- so he got it for me. Don't blame him- he knows better than to stand between me and whatever I am craving. I started in on the bag, and after about 2 handfuls I started feeling funny. It was a new feeling though, not my usual stuck or full I'm gonna hurl feeling. I was woozy and felt like I was on drugs, blood rushing through my veins and my heart pounding out of my chest. I was like OMG Lew I think I am dumping. I made it up to bed and laid down, and it was like being really drunk and having bad bed spins. Somehow I must have fallen asleep though and when I woke up the next morning I was ok- just felt like I had a hangover. So it wasn't as bad as some of the accounts I have read, but I would be in no "rush" to experience it again. I am also glad it happened because I dont want to be tempted by sugar.
So I'm back on track...made a new batch of lemon protein icecream and been living on water crackers with a smear of Stonewall Kitchen Holiday Jam and cheddar cheese. Yum.
I had 2 small pieces of the best quesadilla the other night, baked really crispy with brie, green apple slices, almonds, cranberries and almonds. Amazing. Tonite I had 1 baked mozzarella stick that I made myself. I was tired of looking at those mozarella sticks in the fridge that Nick wasn't eating. So I rolled them in flaxseed and whole wheat panko crumbs, froze them and then baked them in the toaster oven. So good. Lew woofed them down. Tomorrow I think I will make a sugar free pumpkin pie and do a chicken recipe in my crock pot...supposed to be a nice rainy day and the Pats are on so we'll be home.
Ok I am exhausted. Grant's bday party was a blast today...Nick loved being on the farm, seeing the animals and taking a tractor ride out to pick a pumpkin. I am so glad I was able to be there. Funny how everything works out the way it should...most of the time!
Thought for the night as I try and move on from the Battle in the Berkshires
"Yesterday is history, tomorrow a mystery, today is a gift, that's why its called the present."
Nick and I went into Boston after school Tuesday to visit the seals outside the Aquarium...then we went over to Quincy Market for lunch and shopping. We walked through the Faneuil Hall Food Court...wow it's been ages since I've been in there and it was overhwelming. I wanted everything. I was too afraid to try anything though and planned to eat my protein bar...until I met 2 exes named Dale and Thomas.
I discovered their popcorn at Target about a year ago and it is incredible. I love the chocolate carmel drizzle and wouldnt' you know they have set up shop in the Faneuil Hall Food court? I knew the sugar must be through the roof, but I didnt care. I bought a bag and dove in while we walked around. I was thinking- man I am gonna pay for this....I think deep down I have been pushing the envelope, trying to figure out just what I am going to get away with. So I ate several handfuls- the stuff is addictive. Everything was totally fine. I couldnt believe it. I realize that I definitely didn't eat even a quarter of what I would have in my pre-op days, but I still had at least a cup full- which equals 32 grams of sugar! My guidelines call for nothing over 7 grams!!!! So I was thinking- oh my god- I guess sugar isn't going to be a problem for me. And that scared me. Big time.
Fast forward to Wed night- I had asked Lew to hide the bag down in his office, but decided I wanted more- so he got it for me. Don't blame him- he knows better than to stand between me and whatever I am craving. I started in on the bag, and after about 2 handfuls I started feeling funny. It was a new feeling though, not my usual stuck or full I'm gonna hurl feeling. I was woozy and felt like I was on drugs, blood rushing through my veins and my heart pounding out of my chest. I was like OMG Lew I think I am dumping. I made it up to bed and laid down, and it was like being really drunk and having bad bed spins. Somehow I must have fallen asleep though and when I woke up the next morning I was ok- just felt like I had a hangover. So it wasn't as bad as some of the accounts I have read, but I would be in no "rush" to experience it again. I am also glad it happened because I dont want to be tempted by sugar.
So I'm back on track...made a new batch of lemon protein icecream and been living on water crackers with a smear of Stonewall Kitchen Holiday Jam and cheddar cheese. Yum.
I had 2 small pieces of the best quesadilla the other night, baked really crispy with brie, green apple slices, almonds, cranberries and almonds. Amazing. Tonite I had 1 baked mozzarella stick that I made myself. I was tired of looking at those mozarella sticks in the fridge that Nick wasn't eating. So I rolled them in flaxseed and whole wheat panko crumbs, froze them and then baked them in the toaster oven. So good. Lew woofed them down. Tomorrow I think I will make a sugar free pumpkin pie and do a chicken recipe in my crock pot...supposed to be a nice rainy day and the Pats are on so we'll be home.
Ok I am exhausted. Grant's bday party was a blast today...Nick loved being on the farm, seeing the animals and taking a tractor ride out to pick a pumpkin. I am so glad I was able to be there. Funny how everything works out the way it should...most of the time!
Thought for the night as I try and move on from the Battle in the Berkshires
"Yesterday is history, tomorrow a mystery, today is a gift, that's why its called the present."
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