I haven't blogged in 2 weeks- an outrage! I have been working a ton. Things are status quo...I have been coasting along...not taking too many chances because I was just burnt out from getting sick. I know I have to suck it up and try some stuff again because I am getting nervous about the monotony of my diet- not just because I am sick of everything but I know I need more variety for a better nutrition intake.
I know its time to try eggs, meatballs, chili and some veggies again. Its just so hard after having a bad experience. I'll prob bite the bullet this weekend and at least attempt something.
I have had some challenges lately, not like I had to make a choice, because there isn't one, but some food issues that have been depressing. We had our first big cake in the newsroom the other day- which is really miraculous that it has taken this long because usually we have one just about every week. Anyway everyone was raving about how incredible it was...it was not our usual Roche Bros cake, I guess they got it at this fancy bakery called Sugar from West Roxbury that I have heard of and people were dying over this cake. I was seriously distraught, finding it hard to concentrate on my work I wanted it so bad. I thought about taking 1 bite but they said it was so super sweet that I was afraid to dump and get sick at work.
The happy ending is that everyone in my pod was complaining about 20 mins later that they felt sick from it after! So that made me laugh! One girl said her teeth actually hurt from the sugar! So i had my oh Yeah peanutbuttercup power bar and it was all good in the end. Man i have to say that bar is nirvana- I cant believe it has just 1 gram of sugar and no sugar alcohols...plus 14 grams of protein- it is divine.
Anyway my friend Deb invited me to go out in Boston this weekend, but I was like, what the heck am I gonna do while you guys eat and drink all night? Last weekend, my friend Kelly and Bridget came over for a visit and then they were going to Chunkys - on of my favorite movie places where you can eat and drink while watching- so I had to pass on that. Then some guys at work invited me out to another favorite- Buffs pubs- home of the best buffalo wings and beers ever. I used to walk there from my Newton apt and I love it! SO you can see how things are a bit dicey in this department. I thought by now I would be able to go out and do some of this stuff and just have something small...but I am really limited due to my intolerances. If I could just eat a few more things...but in time I hope. It does kill me reading about all the stuff people are eating. This woman had the surgery at least a month after me and she had a subway meatball wrap for lunch and steak tips for dinner- I am truly amazed. I know that's why I am losing much so fast because I am still doing soup and yogurt but come on- I cant even imagine!
Nick Lew and I went to Rockport last weekend- it was gorgeous- I love it there. Anyway we went to a great restaurant overlooking the harbor and beach...I was really stuck about what to order because all the fish was fried and clam chowder is not in my vocablulary any more after the incident. So I ended up getting a lobster roll- for Lew- and having a couple bites of the filling. It was so good but too heavy for me. At least I didnt get sick but it was pretty uncomfortable. That's why every time I am just discouraged and would rather stick to my basics. But its tough trying to live normally and go out and all. This weekend I am going to Kathy's for a girls night and we are having dinner at Carol's house. I am planning to just bring my soup...but I am really dying for a drink. Here's the thing- its such a weird place to be in- it's not like the old days when I was just on HMR or any diet and cheating was so do-able and you could take a break and enjoy yourself then get back on track. I suppose that's why it didnt work for me! But if i decide to have a drink and it backfires- I could get violently sick and ruin my whole weekend. So its just not worth it. Well the girls are happy because they have a full time designated driver now. I dont want to get sick because Sunday we are going to a kids fest in Gloucester so I dont want to miss that. Of course there is a pancake breakfast and a lobster/clam bake there...but it's always something.
Lew and I are going to NYC for our 5 year anniversary. 5 years? It feels like 50!:)
I wanted to do something different since we always go to Topnotch and I adore the restaurants up there. Of course NY is a major foodie town too but at least we can go to a Broadway show and do some Christmas shopping, see the tree etc. we are going the first week in December. So we booked the Hilton with his points in Times Square...and I am trying to decide what show to see. I haven't been to the city in years so that will be nice. Maybe by December I will be able to tolerate some more stuff.
Good news on the protein icecream front- that is really going well. I have made lemon meringue pie, carmel apple, and cookies and cream all delish. Next I am going to make oatmeal cookie. I love it!
So the grand total today is 73 pounds and I do feel great. Everyone is noticing now and its fun getting dressed every day- when i can find something to wear! I packed up a ton of clothes last weekend- it was kind of sad which is weird...i should be thrilled! But it's like letting go of your past and I loved some of those clothes! Fortunately we are having a collection for Dress for Success at work so I can donate all my suits and work clothes. I must have thousands of dollars worth. I hope someone can use them.
Well I have to pack up...we are supposed to go to the beach with Anna, Jen Maria and kids today, but its not so nice out so not sure what we will end up doing. So happy to be off the rest of the week.
“Happiness is different from pleasure. Happiness has something to do with struggling, enduring, and accomplishing.”
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