It's hard to believe I am sitting here writing while eating a scrambled egg and a couple of breakfast potatoes. So far I have had 2 tiny bites of egg and 2 tiny bites of potatoe with ketchup. I am really nervous and taking it sloooowwwwww. If I have a bad reaction you may get to hear about it in real time.
I started Stage 3 today- soft foods, eggs, fish, tuna and egg salad. Thank god because I have had it with my current diet. If I never eat soup, yogurt, pudding, popsicles, hummus, or protein drinks again I will be very happy. It's going to be awhile until I can transition totally so I will prob be stuck with those items for awhile.
I have to say while I am feeling good and looking good, I am still missing my old lifestyle and food desperately. I had a mini melt down this weekend over it...Nick slept over Mimi's and Lew and I had the whole night to ourselves and all I wanted to do was go out to dinner and have some drinks. It was so depressing. When I stay busy with Nick I dont think about it as much but with the whole night looming it was like a huge reminder of what I was missing. I am amazed by the people who have had this surgery who say it's the best thing they ever did and they never looked back etc. I hope I get there some day because I so dont feel that way. I wonder if it's because they were so unhappy and I dont think I really was. I loved my life and one of the greatest pleasures from it was eating and drinking- I am not going to pretend it wasn't. I find the days drag on now and the nights are torture. Eating and all that went with it took up alot of time. We used to spend half the evening at least preparing the food, cooking it, eating it and then cleaning up. I loved having a glass of wine or a margarita while I made dinner and waited for the grilling to be done. I feel like a fish out of water now. I take a few spoonfuls of soup and dinner is over in 10 mins. No prep, no cleanup, that's it.
Diane has been talking to me about this for months and it is finally hitting me. I have to find stuff to do to replace food in my life. We've talked about it, and I had some ideas, but I haven't really had to deal with it til now. I think alot of people replace their food habit with exercise, I dont see that happening to me! I am starting Curves and my dance class but I dont think I will become an addict. Lisa and I have been talking about scrapbooking, which i want to do, but part of me is like- ok my life is truly over now if i start scrapbooking at night! I have to think of something else to do. For the interim, I rejoined Netflix last night. The summer without my shows is adding to the torture at night, so i said screw it i am worth the 8 bucks a month. I had fun picking out all the movies and can't wait for my first one to arrive. I know its kind of lame and not very active, but maybe I can lift weights or do the eliptical while i watch!
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
50 Pounds Gone!
Yes it's true. Down 50 pounds since my pre-op diet. I am feeling good. Went to get my haircut yesterday and was able to put on the little wrap thing they give you to change into for the first time. I have been going to Mandy for about 10 years now...and I always just say i dont need it- because i know its not going to fit around me. Well this time I grabbed it and ran into the changing room. And low and behold, the sucker wrapped all the way around and tied. I nearly fainted.
Still living on soup- I wish I could buy stock in the New England Soup Factory since I am living there. I know everyone there personally now! Thank god for that place, so so so good. I tried making some soups myself but they just weren't as good! And forget anything canned- I am way too spoiled with the good stuff now. I have been tolerating Babybel cheese- 1 a day- so good...and some mini bretton crackers which are great too. Other than that nothing too new and exciting on the menu front. I start soft solids on Sunday- but I am nervous. I have heard some bad stories about eggs so not in too much of a rush to try them. I will also be allowed to have soft fish...which I am not a huge fan of. I am hoping I will like it. I have a cook book for post op recipes and there are lots of sauces to try since that apparently helps to get the solids down.
The pool is finally open- hurray! Only been in a few times because the weather has been off and on and I've been working alot. Also Nick has decided he doesn't like the pool this year so he wont get off the steps. At least he comes in that far I suppose. He only wants to go swimming at Simonds Park pool up the street...a kids wading pool with a big sprinkler in the middle. He loves it.
Oh I buried the lead- Nick is potty training! Hallelujah! He wants a new jeep to race around in so I used the potty training as a deal maker and he has been full steam ahead ever since. No diapers for 5 whole days! A few accidents but getting better every day. What a great feeling not to have to change diapers!
Well I haven't been blogging much, I was talking to my friend Leslie about that and thinking maybe it's a good sign. I think when I am really struggling and low, I tend to want to write more. So I think I have been doing really well and adjusting to my new life. I'll have to try and write more when things are going well too.
I was bummed about a VIP Media party I was supposed to go to last night for this new hotel in Newton. I chickened out at the last minute- after I read the press release detailing the open bar with fancy cocktails and tons of food, apps and desserts. I just knew it would bum me out to be there and not be able to have anything. Probably 6 months or a year from now I will be able to do that stuff again. But not now. I heard it was a great party. Dee Snyder from Twisted Sister was there! HAHA!
I really am craving a drink I will admit. I just used to love a glass of wine at the end of the day now and then, so relaxing. Oh well. I start my free week at Curves on Monday to see if I like it, and I signed up for a Jazzercise like class at the Rec Dept and that starts in 2 weeks. So I will get my exercise program going...it's time. Still not doing too great with my calories, but hopefully adding solids will help. I pray i can tolerate some new things. My stomach is still pretty iffy.
Still living on soup- I wish I could buy stock in the New England Soup Factory since I am living there. I know everyone there personally now! Thank god for that place, so so so good. I tried making some soups myself but they just weren't as good! And forget anything canned- I am way too spoiled with the good stuff now. I have been tolerating Babybel cheese- 1 a day- so good...and some mini bretton crackers which are great too. Other than that nothing too new and exciting on the menu front. I start soft solids on Sunday- but I am nervous. I have heard some bad stories about eggs so not in too much of a rush to try them. I will also be allowed to have soft fish...which I am not a huge fan of. I am hoping I will like it. I have a cook book for post op recipes and there are lots of sauces to try since that apparently helps to get the solids down.
The pool is finally open- hurray! Only been in a few times because the weather has been off and on and I've been working alot. Also Nick has decided he doesn't like the pool this year so he wont get off the steps. At least he comes in that far I suppose. He only wants to go swimming at Simonds Park pool up the street...a kids wading pool with a big sprinkler in the middle. He loves it.
Oh I buried the lead- Nick is potty training! Hallelujah! He wants a new jeep to race around in so I used the potty training as a deal maker and he has been full steam ahead ever since. No diapers for 5 whole days! A few accidents but getting better every day. What a great feeling not to have to change diapers!
Well I haven't been blogging much, I was talking to my friend Leslie about that and thinking maybe it's a good sign. I think when I am really struggling and low, I tend to want to write more. So I think I have been doing really well and adjusting to my new life. I'll have to try and write more when things are going well too.
I was bummed about a VIP Media party I was supposed to go to last night for this new hotel in Newton. I chickened out at the last minute- after I read the press release detailing the open bar with fancy cocktails and tons of food, apps and desserts. I just knew it would bum me out to be there and not be able to have anything. Probably 6 months or a year from now I will be able to do that stuff again. But not now. I heard it was a great party. Dee Snyder from Twisted Sister was there! HAHA!
I really am craving a drink I will admit. I just used to love a glass of wine at the end of the day now and then, so relaxing. Oh well. I start my free week at Curves on Monday to see if I like it, and I signed up for a Jazzercise like class at the Rec Dept and that starts in 2 weeks. So I will get my exercise program going...it's time. Still not doing too great with my calories, but hopefully adding solids will help. I pray i can tolerate some new things. My stomach is still pretty iffy.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Meatball Mishap
Well it's been quite a week. I'll start with the positive...I am down 47 pounds in 7 weeks...crazy. I really can't believe it's coming off this fast. I am down about 4 sizes...and my BMI has dropped by 8 points. I am feeling pretty good, still get tired alot, because of my low calorie intake, but I am moving around so much easier and loving wearing all my old favorite clothes that haven't seen the light of day in at least 5 years.
Now for the buzz kill. I did something really stupid the other night and man did I pay for it. I made spaghetti and meatballs for my family and decided that i would try a few small bites of a mini meatball since it was soft and i chewed it like crazy- figured it would be like puree by the time i swallowed it. Well I was wrong. I was violently ill, 4 hours of horrible pain and agony, and I threw up for the first time since having surgery. I will probably never eat a meatball again as long as I live, seriously. You think, oh yes you will...but I remember drinking a bottle of peach shnapps one Sunday afternoon in my post office pinto on the drive from Manch-Vegas back to KSC with my crazy college friend Sara Kallander...I was so sick for days, puking up this horrible peach flavored puke, and let me tell you to this day just the smell of anything peach sends me reeling. So I think meatballs and I are going our separate way.
I must say the experience was quite humbling. You start to feel very cocky after surgery, you are feeling good and really pretty normal...like maybe it didnt really change much in there, and what is the big deal about a couple of dime sized bites of a soft meatball? Well it's safe to say you are not smarter than your surgeon, and something did change in there- and it will always be there to remind you and keep you in your place...and it won't be a friendly or pleasant reminder.
The pain was so awful that I can not imagine starting soft solids in less than 2 weeks. I will be so nervous and I dont know how daring I will be. I seriously thought I was going to have to go to the ER or worse, send Lew out for the dreaded meat tenderizer I had read about- of people who get meat stuck in their stomach opening and have to drink meat tenderizer and warm water to get it through. Talk about nasty. The pain finally went away after my seond round of upchucking...and without getting too gross and graphic, for the amount of stuff I threw up it amazes me i was that sick and in that much pain. It was a joke. Well I wasn't laughing let me tell you. It's all very frustrating and confusing, how do you know when you are ready to try something new, and if it's going to agree with you? As my post op instructions say, after 8 weeks you are basically on your own, and its all trial and error. Which after you get sick like that once, you are in no hurry to be adventurous again, I can assure you.
So I am have been sticking to liquids ever since the incident. Getting sick of soup and Isopure big time. I made an HMR shake today and was able to drink the whole thing in about an hour...14 grams of protein, so that was great. Still struggling to get in my minimum protein and calories, but doing well with the fluids. Water has gotten easier to drink thank goodness.
Nick and I have been busy, went to 'Imajine That' with Anna and Jen and kids on Tuesday, everyone had a good time. After that Nick and I drove Lew to Logan and went to visit Debbie and Max in the South End. We went to Max's dog park and Nick had the best time playing with about 20 dogs! We walked over to the Pru and he had dinner and an icecream out on the south lawn near the big fountain. We had so much fun...he told me he wants to live in the city too! We even went up on Deb's roof deck overlooking the city- he was amazed by it all...but he didnt want to stay up there too long- I think he was kind of blown away by being up there! Aly and the boys came over today and everyone fought over the motorized cars. Bad idea to take them out.
The pool is improving, it's not green any more just cloudy, I am praying we might make it in this weekend.
I am not sure why I am not feeling too excited about my weight loss. Diane says I am mourning the loss of my ex love- food. She had some excellent suggestions to help me continue my relationship with food, in a new healthy way. I am supposed to look up some soup recipes, shop for the food, and make it special just for me. I thought it sounded great, but I haven't done it yet and I am not sure why. I want to, but I am just in a rut having my same things every day. Maybe its just safe, I dont know.
I saw my bike in the shed today and I was getting excited thinking about riding it. My Nantucket basket was still attached and I was thinking about how much I loved riding around the island and then on the bike path near my apt in Watertown. I dont think I am ready to get on just yet- prob another 30 pounds or so. But I can't wait!
Well that's the update...and of course the Celtics Rock! Man that game was AMAZING!
Now for the buzz kill. I did something really stupid the other night and man did I pay for it. I made spaghetti and meatballs for my family and decided that i would try a few small bites of a mini meatball since it was soft and i chewed it like crazy- figured it would be like puree by the time i swallowed it. Well I was wrong. I was violently ill, 4 hours of horrible pain and agony, and I threw up for the first time since having surgery. I will probably never eat a meatball again as long as I live, seriously. You think, oh yes you will...but I remember drinking a bottle of peach shnapps one Sunday afternoon in my post office pinto on the drive from Manch-Vegas back to KSC with my crazy college friend Sara Kallander...I was so sick for days, puking up this horrible peach flavored puke, and let me tell you to this day just the smell of anything peach sends me reeling. So I think meatballs and I are going our separate way.
I must say the experience was quite humbling. You start to feel very cocky after surgery, you are feeling good and really pretty normal...like maybe it didnt really change much in there, and what is the big deal about a couple of dime sized bites of a soft meatball? Well it's safe to say you are not smarter than your surgeon, and something did change in there- and it will always be there to remind you and keep you in your place...and it won't be a friendly or pleasant reminder.
The pain was so awful that I can not imagine starting soft solids in less than 2 weeks. I will be so nervous and I dont know how daring I will be. I seriously thought I was going to have to go to the ER or worse, send Lew out for the dreaded meat tenderizer I had read about- of people who get meat stuck in their stomach opening and have to drink meat tenderizer and warm water to get it through. Talk about nasty. The pain finally went away after my seond round of upchucking...and without getting too gross and graphic, for the amount of stuff I threw up it amazes me i was that sick and in that much pain. It was a joke. Well I wasn't laughing let me tell you. It's all very frustrating and confusing, how do you know when you are ready to try something new, and if it's going to agree with you? As my post op instructions say, after 8 weeks you are basically on your own, and its all trial and error. Which after you get sick like that once, you are in no hurry to be adventurous again, I can assure you.
So I am have been sticking to liquids ever since the incident. Getting sick of soup and Isopure big time. I made an HMR shake today and was able to drink the whole thing in about an hour...14 grams of protein, so that was great. Still struggling to get in my minimum protein and calories, but doing well with the fluids. Water has gotten easier to drink thank goodness.
Nick and I have been busy, went to 'Imajine That' with Anna and Jen and kids on Tuesday, everyone had a good time. After that Nick and I drove Lew to Logan and went to visit Debbie and Max in the South End. We went to Max's dog park and Nick had the best time playing with about 20 dogs! We walked over to the Pru and he had dinner and an icecream out on the south lawn near the big fountain. We had so much fun...he told me he wants to live in the city too! We even went up on Deb's roof deck overlooking the city- he was amazed by it all...but he didnt want to stay up there too long- I think he was kind of blown away by being up there! Aly and the boys came over today and everyone fought over the motorized cars. Bad idea to take them out.
The pool is improving, it's not green any more just cloudy, I am praying we might make it in this weekend.
I am not sure why I am not feeling too excited about my weight loss. Diane says I am mourning the loss of my ex love- food. She had some excellent suggestions to help me continue my relationship with food, in a new healthy way. I am supposed to look up some soup recipes, shop for the food, and make it special just for me. I thought it sounded great, but I haven't done it yet and I am not sure why. I want to, but I am just in a rut having my same things every day. Maybe its just safe, I dont know.
I saw my bike in the shed today and I was getting excited thinking about riding it. My Nantucket basket was still attached and I was thinking about how much I loved riding around the island and then on the bike path near my apt in Watertown. I dont think I am ready to get on just yet- prob another 30 pounds or so. But I can't wait!
Well that's the update...and of course the Celtics Rock! Man that game was AMAZING!
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Livin on Mock Lasagna and Hummus Oh Ya
So here we are almost 5 weeks post-op and down 42 pounds. I know this seems like so much in so little time, but it feels like it's happening at a snails pace. I definitely see it in my face, feel it in my clothes and my energy level. I have dropped about 3 sizes and am having fun trying on something new that fits just about every day. I have clothes in several sizes that I have stashed away in various closets, drawers and hope chests, thank god i had the sense to save so much. I guess I prayed and hoped that one day I would finally lose that weight. I found so many gorgeous clothes today- some with the price tags still on! I am particularly eyeing this cute flip flop skirt I bought in Florida a few years ago...and have never been able to wear. I tried it on today and I have another 10 pounds to go I would say, but it is hanging front and center on my clothes rack to keep me motivated.
Speaking of flip flops, I got the most thoughtful gift in the mail the other day from my best friend's mom. She has been so supportive and encouraging throughout this entire process, and she sent me some adorable flip flop earrings to congratulate me on my success so far. I can't believe you remembered my flip flop obsession Mrs. D! Thank you so much for thinking of me, it's the little things like that, that keep me going.
So I started the puree stage this week. All in all not too thrilling, since I cant stand the thought of actually pureeing anything from a solid state and then gagging it down. I am living on garlic hummus, laughing cow cheese wedges, and my new favorite concoction, mock lasagna. I layer 2 tablesoons part skim ricotta cheese, tbls of spag sauce and bake it in the oven, then i sprinkly parm cheese on top. Delicious! Packs a serious protein punch too.
Still having alot of NE Soup Factory Brocoli and Cheddar soup, avocado with salsa and sour cream, and of course mostly just water and Isopure protein drinks. I am proud to say I am up to about 500 calories a day...just 100 from my daily goal.
It's really tough to get in, because all the things I am eating are so tiny- I eat about 3-4 ounces per meal max.
Well that's the update for now, going to take the dogs for a walk...what a gorgeous night. Oh I have to mention that I finally saw the Sex and the City movie- LOVED IT!
My dear friend Amanda in Florida read my blog whining about how I wanted to go out to dinner and have cosmos for the occasion and she totally cheered me up by saying that she did just that with a group of girls and indulged in fried apps and sweet cosmos and then totally regretted it and felt sick that night and the next day. She said she was wishing she had opted for a sparking water and big salad. Sorry you felt sick girl but I appreciate the story! It did make me feel better!
Speaking of flip flops, I got the most thoughtful gift in the mail the other day from my best friend's mom. She has been so supportive and encouraging throughout this entire process, and she sent me some adorable flip flop earrings to congratulate me on my success so far. I can't believe you remembered my flip flop obsession Mrs. D! Thank you so much for thinking of me, it's the little things like that, that keep me going.
So I started the puree stage this week. All in all not too thrilling, since I cant stand the thought of actually pureeing anything from a solid state and then gagging it down. I am living on garlic hummus, laughing cow cheese wedges, and my new favorite concoction, mock lasagna. I layer 2 tablesoons part skim ricotta cheese, tbls of spag sauce and bake it in the oven, then i sprinkly parm cheese on top. Delicious! Packs a serious protein punch too.
Still having alot of NE Soup Factory Brocoli and Cheddar soup, avocado with salsa and sour cream, and of course mostly just water and Isopure protein drinks. I am proud to say I am up to about 500 calories a day...just 100 from my daily goal.
It's really tough to get in, because all the things I am eating are so tiny- I eat about 3-4 ounces per meal max.
Well that's the update for now, going to take the dogs for a walk...what a gorgeous night. Oh I have to mention that I finally saw the Sex and the City movie- LOVED IT!
My dear friend Amanda in Florida read my blog whining about how I wanted to go out to dinner and have cosmos for the occasion and she totally cheered me up by saying that she did just that with a group of girls and indulged in fried apps and sweet cosmos and then totally regretted it and felt sick that night and the next day. She said she was wishing she had opted for a sparking water and big salad. Sorry you felt sick girl but I appreciate the story! It did make me feel better!
Friday, June 6, 2008
Slow and Steady Wins the Race
Well I haven't had much time to blog this week or much new to report. Lew had a biz trip so Nick and I were straight out and when I finally got him down at night it was all I could do to watch a little tv and crawl into bed.
Feeling pretty good, but still frustrated with the slow weight loss. Since I lost wrote nearly a week ago, I am only down 2 more pounds. This is very maddening to me and I just dont get it. But I am trying to be patient as everything I read says the 3week stall is common and it will break. I also talked to Louise today and she told me to try and up my water instead of focusing on my protein drink all day. I was counting that toward my water intake but she said that could be the problem- not enough straight water. So i am doing that today and we'll see what happens.
Just 1 more day until my new puree stage. I dont really plan to have purees because the thought of that really grosses me out. But I will try mashed potatoes, oatmeal, more soup, and some fruit. I cant wait to have a piece of banana! I read somewhere that laughing cow cheese will be ok also- if only i could have it on a cracker!
I did have a small cheat last night and man did I pay for it. Nick and his 2 buddies and I made banana bread and it smelled and looked so good I was eyeing it all day.
I finally gave in and took 2 small bites and it seemed ok. For about 20 seconds.
That's when I felt this horrible pain in my chest and I thought it was going to come back up. The fullness, and pain feeling lasted for about 20 minutes and it was agony. I regretted it so bad. So I guess it's working! It was such a stupid thing to do because i know bread is one of the LAST things on the stages list and we're supposed to avoid it altogether if possible- even down the road. Man it was so good...but not worth the scare.
I went to the NE Soup Factory today near my work...love that place. Today was my first day back to work since surgery and it felt great to get out of the house and back to the newsroom. I managed to squeeze in a pedicure too and had a great day at work...missed all my newsie buddies. Only a few people here know I had surgery but i was really excited because one of the girls who does not know told me that i looked like i lost alot of weight. So that felt good.
And even though I am not losing as fast as I might like I did hit a new low today. I dipped below my wedding day weight- and that's the first time I have been under that weight in almost 5 years. So that was great.
Oh one of my incisions was sore and puffy last night so i pressed on it and it was open and tons of fluid came out. Sorry so gross...but i thought it must be infected.
I bandaged it over night and it seemed fine this morning and not sore. So i called the office and she said it was normal. She said the fluid sometimes builds up and then forces its way out- and that the hole would close up again on its own. What fun.
Well I have to go see if the Soup Factory is still open because the curry crab coconut soup is calling my name.
Feeling pretty good, but still frustrated with the slow weight loss. Since I lost wrote nearly a week ago, I am only down 2 more pounds. This is very maddening to me and I just dont get it. But I am trying to be patient as everything I read says the 3week stall is common and it will break. I also talked to Louise today and she told me to try and up my water instead of focusing on my protein drink all day. I was counting that toward my water intake but she said that could be the problem- not enough straight water. So i am doing that today and we'll see what happens.
Just 1 more day until my new puree stage. I dont really plan to have purees because the thought of that really grosses me out. But I will try mashed potatoes, oatmeal, more soup, and some fruit. I cant wait to have a piece of banana! I read somewhere that laughing cow cheese will be ok also- if only i could have it on a cracker!
I did have a small cheat last night and man did I pay for it. Nick and his 2 buddies and I made banana bread and it smelled and looked so good I was eyeing it all day.
I finally gave in and took 2 small bites and it seemed ok. For about 20 seconds.
That's when I felt this horrible pain in my chest and I thought it was going to come back up. The fullness, and pain feeling lasted for about 20 minutes and it was agony. I regretted it so bad. So I guess it's working! It was such a stupid thing to do because i know bread is one of the LAST things on the stages list and we're supposed to avoid it altogether if possible- even down the road. Man it was so good...but not worth the scare.
I went to the NE Soup Factory today near my work...love that place. Today was my first day back to work since surgery and it felt great to get out of the house and back to the newsroom. I managed to squeeze in a pedicure too and had a great day at work...missed all my newsie buddies. Only a few people here know I had surgery but i was really excited because one of the girls who does not know told me that i looked like i lost alot of weight. So that felt good.
And even though I am not losing as fast as I might like I did hit a new low today. I dipped below my wedding day weight- and that's the first time I have been under that weight in almost 5 years. So that was great.
Oh one of my incisions was sore and puffy last night so i pressed on it and it was open and tons of fluid came out. Sorry so gross...but i thought it must be infected.
I bandaged it over night and it seemed fine this morning and not sore. So i called the office and she said it was normal. She said the fluid sometimes builds up and then forces its way out- and that the hole would close up again on its own. What fun.
Well I have to go see if the Soup Factory is still open because the curry crab coconut soup is calling my name.
Monday, June 2, 2008
Pounds and Inches 3 weeks post op
So I lost a few more pounds since the plateau. I also did some research and found that after surgery there is a very well known phenomenon called the 3 and 7 week stall. So I guess I was right on track with my stall.
I am 3 weeks out today and down 37 pounds. I also checked my measurements today and boy was i surprised...a total of 21 inches LOST! I couldnt believe it. Mostly from my waist and hips (butt and stomach). I think I already have to buy new underwear...of all things!
I am getting very anxious to try some new items on my menu. 1 week from today I start purees so that will be nice. Well if you like pureed meat that is. GAG.
I am looking forward to mashed potatoes, mushy cold cereal, oatmeal, and new soups, especially lobster bisque! I really need the calories so I hope i can keep it all down. I think I am up to a high of 400 calories a day, but prob more like 300 average. I have been feeling good but yesterday and today I felt very lightheaded and more outer body experience feelings. I had my first cup of decaf coffee today, not sure why since its such a waste of space, but i was craving coffee. I had about 3ounces...it was just ok.
So we've been busy, hung out at Anna's all day Saturday and Nick went for another round of bowling. Zach wanted to go so we took them to a place in Beverly, they were so cute. Sunday we went to Uncle Dan's for the day and they boys had a blast playing in the kiddie pool and on the giant swingset. I brought the dogs and they were in heaven- running around the huge backyard. All 3 of my boys slept the whole way home.
Oh I had a spoonful of hummus at Dan's and it was sooooo good. I figured it was the consistency of pudding and had 0 sugar and high protein so i went for it. Yummo as Rachel Ray would say.
Today I woke up feeling woozy again, and my neighbor Lisa was a lifesaver, took Nick from 10-2 so I could rest. I dont think I would have made it thru the day without her. I watched her boys for a couple hours after and I was feeling much better just from having the downtime.
Food cravings and desires have definitely diminished. I feel like I am over the hump at least for now. I still want stuff, but i think maybe something has clicked and I understand I will be able to have it relatively soon...even if it's just a bite. The amazing thing is that now that is all i need.
Nick's last day of preschool is tomorrow and then his final program on Wednesday. I can't wait to see what they do. What a year it's been. I remember when he started I had just cancelled my original surgery back in August. Hopefully by the time he starts again in September I will be a hot mamma:) Or at least on my way!
"Inside some of us is a thin person struggling to get out, but they can usually be sedated with a few pieces of chocolate cake."
I am 3 weeks out today and down 37 pounds. I also checked my measurements today and boy was i surprised...a total of 21 inches LOST! I couldnt believe it. Mostly from my waist and hips (butt and stomach). I think I already have to buy new underwear...of all things!
I am getting very anxious to try some new items on my menu. 1 week from today I start purees so that will be nice. Well if you like pureed meat that is. GAG.
I am looking forward to mashed potatoes, mushy cold cereal, oatmeal, and new soups, especially lobster bisque! I really need the calories so I hope i can keep it all down. I think I am up to a high of 400 calories a day, but prob more like 300 average. I have been feeling good but yesterday and today I felt very lightheaded and more outer body experience feelings. I had my first cup of decaf coffee today, not sure why since its such a waste of space, but i was craving coffee. I had about 3ounces...it was just ok.
So we've been busy, hung out at Anna's all day Saturday and Nick went for another round of bowling. Zach wanted to go so we took them to a place in Beverly, they were so cute. Sunday we went to Uncle Dan's for the day and they boys had a blast playing in the kiddie pool and on the giant swingset. I brought the dogs and they were in heaven- running around the huge backyard. All 3 of my boys slept the whole way home.
Oh I had a spoonful of hummus at Dan's and it was sooooo good. I figured it was the consistency of pudding and had 0 sugar and high protein so i went for it. Yummo as Rachel Ray would say.
Today I woke up feeling woozy again, and my neighbor Lisa was a lifesaver, took Nick from 10-2 so I could rest. I dont think I would have made it thru the day without her. I watched her boys for a couple hours after and I was feeling much better just from having the downtime.
Food cravings and desires have definitely diminished. I feel like I am over the hump at least for now. I still want stuff, but i think maybe something has clicked and I understand I will be able to have it relatively soon...even if it's just a bite. The amazing thing is that now that is all i need.
Nick's last day of preschool is tomorrow and then his final program on Wednesday. I can't wait to see what they do. What a year it's been. I remember when he started I had just cancelled my original surgery back in August. Hopefully by the time he starts again in September I will be a hot mamma:) Or at least on my way!
"Inside some of us is a thin person struggling to get out, but they can usually be sedated with a few pieces of chocolate cake."
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