So this is it. After a year and a half of agonizing, researching, soul searching, dieting, stuffing myself silly, and winding up in the same place (again) I am finally saying good bye to my life long obsession with food. I start my 2 week pre-op liquid diet tomorrow- surgery date set for May 12.
Went out to Vinny Testa's with Lew, Nick and my inlaws today and indulged in one dish i know i will never have again, fettuccini alfredo with chicken aka "heart attack on a plate." It was quite delicious and satisfying. I think i am finally ready to hit the liquids tomorrow- but that's easy to say tonite with a full belly. Had a great weekend with Lew and Nick. Trying to stay positive and not get too nervous about the challenges ahead. If I let my mind wander to Nick too much, I can work myself into a frantic frenzy. Am I doing the right thing? What if something happens to me? I am doing this for Nick, so God forbid anything goes wrong....is he better off with a fat mom or no mom at all? It's heavy stuff- no pun intended. I choke up at the mere thought of it...just want to fast forward 6 months to the good stuff. I know I will get there.
Good night and goodbye to all that....the first day of the rest of my life starts tomorrow! I can hardly wait! Shake it up baby.
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